Darling Nikki
| 27 January 2009
Even Pandora did not intend for all those "evils" to escape her jar. And yes, it was a JAR, not a box.. Curiousity just got the better of her. At least ``HOPE`` remained (in the jar).. Good old hope.. the last thing to die. I'm going to bitch a little here about married men.. Rich Married Men, Rich Men, and Men in general.. .. Why do so many people cheat on their partners.. is it curiousity, or are some of us just naughty by nature? Sidenote: Not ALL married men are DAWGS, so no offence to the faithful husbands/partners out there.Oh I've heard plenty of confessions.. One of my favorites has got to be where a person who shall of course never ever be named, had an affair with his wife's sister (also married, with children) that spanned a DECADE!!! And in his own words, he was "in love" with her..I wonder how many of her kids are actually her husband's!?).. So get this - the husband and wife stay together - and the sister's husband is miraculously never the wiser (but he must've been told something) because a quick move upstate, and the sisters speak to one another no more, but the person that I know and his wife are still together.. I'm not sure how he pulled that one off.. not like you can give the wife a box of chocolates with a Hallmark Card that says, "Honey, I'm so sorry I fu#ked your sister (whom I was also in love with), repeatedly and for years.. Please forgive me?"
People say they are working on their marriages to get past these "things". My Ass.. Tell me his ass is not permanently in the doghouse. Trust is a huge thing to lose, and oftentimes impossible to regain. That's why I say, if you really love someone - you need to be able to trust them completely. With anything, with everything - at least the important things. People take each other for granted way too often and it's a shame, because things can change in a minute and that person you love can be gone.. taken away by some cruel hand of fate. Just look at 9/11.. and the dominoes are still falling on that one. And people find themselves wishing they had said more, been nicer, done more with that person.
So damn it people, if you love someone (assuming they love you too), then make sure they know.. It's a wonderful gift to give if it's from the heart and you can't buy that in any store.. Okay enough of my soft side.. I'm better at being a bitch, lol. A little off topic, but with regards to Hallmark Cards, they also don't make one that says "Sorry I was so drunk when I banged you last night that I pissed your bed and ruined your mattress"... NO NO this did NOT happen to me, but it happened to a girlfriend. I'd go ballistic if it did, and I can guarantee two things: There would be a new mattress on my bed within 2 hours, and there wouldn't be any invites back to the loveshack haha.
Rich married men? Oh, they are just too much.. they think they can buy anyone.. I prefer to use the term "RENT".. they are so shocked when you don't turn into mush at their offers of trips, dinners, this, that and the other.. My insubordination shocks them! Some of them are friends (more like acquaintances that I keep at arm's length, but I have to deal with them to some degree due to work). I have looked right at one of them after a proposition (one of several) and said, "tell you what, I'll let you know if I hit a dry patch". What is it with these guys? Like I want to go on a trip with a married guy that I'm not really into, just to be treated like a f#ck doll for a week at some tropical destination resort, while he squeezes in a few golf games and a business meeting or two. I was engaged in an "exhange" with a man recently, he's Separated but very wealthy, (I've known him for a few years) I don't have to work with him on any level, but I met him through work. These guys must enjoy abuse that's all I can say. I think they find my bluntness both alarming, and entertaining, they always come back for more.
Every so often, they re-test the waters, to see if I've had a change of heart. Maybe just maybe I will say "Yes, Pleeeease take me away" instead of my usual "with you?? no thanks".. lol we have an understanding now..I understand that they keep trying, and they (try) to understand why I keep saying no. Afterall, NO ONE says "no" to some of these big shooters.. In a recent exchange, in which I was irritated by him I said, "GO RENT SOMEONE. You are a f#cking asshole, and people are nothing but accessories to you". He then reprimanded me for my "nice language". I msged him: "SORRY DADDY, it's rather twisted that you enjoy chastising a woman you are trying to f#ck, as though I'm some unruly child or teenager"..
Like he's never heard me use expletives before?? I'd rather go on a trip with someone that I wanted to be with, not as a "RENTAL" and yeah, if it were decided to spend half the time having sex, great - I have no problem with that. On the topic of married men, which I do my best to avoid; here's a question and I'm just playing devil's advocate.. If a single woman sleeps with a man that she knows to be married, (whether it's once or several times makes no difference) does that make her a cheater?? Isn't he the married one - so isn't he therefore THE CHEATER.. the woman, at the most is an enabler, an accomplice, but she's not a cheater ...is she??
A few years back I had a friend/customer decide he was going to tell me that he was in love with me.. I knew him for about 9 years, and upon my "becoming single", he thought (???) that this was the perfect opportunity to drop this bomb. And yes, he was (and IS) married. You see, the plan was (!!), and let me be clear here; HIS PLAN was to tell the wife that things were over and he was going to move in with me!! Umm a few problems with that there "plan." First off, and I told him, "I am not interested in you, so if you're getting out of your trainwreck of a marriage, congratulations but it will have nothing to do with me". I couldn't believe what I was hearing. He had "loved" me for years, and now lucky, lucky me - if I wanted him - he was MINE ALL MINE.
He was too afraid to leave, like most people are, but that was neither here nor there. Like it was my good fortune that he was willing to give it all up for me. and there's me, I'd just gotten out of jail. like I needed this BS. Yeah, just like winning the State Lottery; His comfort/complacency gut, his all too often excessive drinking (cultivated from years of being miserable) and oh joy oh bliss, teenaged kids that I'm sure would juuust love me! But let's not forget the icing on the cake here; that not so minor detail of his scorned wife that would probably try to run me over in her Range Rover that he'd still be making the payments on! Hell yeah, sign me up. That's just what I was gunning for after finally escaping my own living nightmare relationship. Needless to say, I stopped talking to my friend turned lovestruck puppy.. that was long ago now.. he's still in that miserable marriage, and he sends me a text message every six months or so, that I don't answer. Thankfully, he has moved farther away. Things could've got pretty silly.. He was not thinking very clearly at all.
NNNNNNEXT.. Oh my we do live in a disposable society.. Even my worldly 15 year old neice uses that word.. I don't give out my number often, but I walk a fine line also because several people that I meet are potential customers for the line of work that I'm in.. and even if they are not "prospects" (for work), you just never know - who THEY know. But this single (sometimes vicious) cycle (lol like the "spin cycle" on the washing machine), sees me (generally) sticking close to home, people that I know.. Better the Devil you know, as they say. Venturing out has not always been a positive experience for me.. This past weekend was good fun. A friend of mine from just North of the city, was at another northern location not too far off, and we decided to meet up and go for a few drinks at a (women's) Strip Club. Packed a few necessities for my mini road trip and off I went. had a few drinks, a lot of laughs and stayed in a luxury suite at a nearby hotel for the night. There`s nothing like a hot tub on a cold, cold winter night.. and yeah - he's handsome and fun, and single like me (not like one of the married oinkers I referred to above) - we always have a good time.. so there's yet another UPSIDE of being single.
Darling Nikki
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