Darling Nikki
| 04 March 2009
Another weekend of fun has passed, and the next one is almost here. Opted out of the bar scene - it will still be there. I'm sure I didn't miss a thing. Spent some "me" time, and visited with a couple of friends. The weekends go by too fast. Might be at "Vegas Band Camp" soon but that's yet to be confirmed. Vegas - it's an adult's playground, it's like a magnet. The perfect spot to forget about reality for a few days, and never look at, or care what time of day it is. It just doesn't matter. Not there it doesn't. Wowee this just might be my 7th tour of duty if I go. I've lost count but I believe it would be Lucky 7. The gambling I can take it, or leave it. The pools, the "adult only" pools, the strip, the atmosphere - it's just a great place to forget about things and live the surreal life for a few days. Gambling. Is it wanting to win money or the high from simply winning? Its kind of like the dating/hookup/promiscuous thing. Is it the sex or the attention? The money, honey (gambling) or the honey, honey? (FWB's) Maybe its both. I'm going to pass on it... this time. Vegas will still be there too. I've got my sights on a better plan for next month.MEN. They're too cute sometimes. The things they will do/say in hopes of gettin' "some". A pal that I often joke with, who'd have no issue with taking it the extra step, tells me that if I ever get stood up for one of my "dates" (aka appointments), or just need sex, that he is willing to step up. Says he's a "ringer". I didn't know what that was exactly, but then he told me. So helpful and thoughtful, aren't they? Especially the ones with girlfriends. One tells me that it can be all about me. No sex if I don't want it. He just wants to "taste" me - all over. Still another has said that I've had "vanilla" all my life and I need to try "chocolate". Wow. That's bold. There's more but I think we all get the picture. The men I do "see" don't have to say any of this. Even those asses can be complacent at times. It's all pretty direct. One has an especially sexy little mouth on him though and the text messages get quite good. Definitely foreplay. Bottom line: (I'm not saying some women ie; if they are shy, don't need a little convincing to pique their interest more) but if a woman wants you, you'll know it when you're alone with her or by what her responses are to you in any conversation where there's even a hint of sexual innuendo.
I like to think of my "fwb's" as close friends too, in the sense that we are intimate. There's a "chick" word for sure. There's no guesswork involved when we get together and I like that. It's fun and comfortable too. And maybe I'm loco, but I feel that there is genuine mutual caring between us. (Some more than others). Or maybe that's just my woman's way of looking at it. (see; loco) Who knows? It works for me. I will say one thing; Rose colored glasses or not - Good sex is very relaxing and makes a person sleep better and cope better, with life in general. It would be so much easier to have a normal, sexy, horny, sweet, decent (steady), gainfully employed boyfriend but the powers that be, seem to want me single. Like I say, it does have some advantages.
A couple of men have told me that I don't "look like" the "settling down type". What does that look like??! Besides, if I was with the right person (see description above; the guy that doesn't really exist lol) then I could just be me and doing whatever I'm doing now, but with one person instead of with a few haha "chosen ones". What's so difficult about that? Aha - it's proof that I could "settle down". I just won't settle. I do get bored sometimes when there's noBODY around, but I'm not desperate. And Tom? - yes, yes Tom Brady, he went ahead and married the Victoria's Secret model so there goes my chances with him :). They are a stunning couple I must say. Then there's me. Me and the devils I know. Devils, Horses, Men whatever. It's a trip alright. A journey... Destination? I have no idea. That can be part of the fun.
Darling Nikki
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