Darling Nikki
| 17 June 2009
How many times have I extolled the virtues of being nice? Apparently, there's a lot of guys out there who like their women bitchy. With some, it seems: the bitchier, the better. In fact, I can honestly say that the men I'm not 'as nice' to are quite persistent. But the minute I'm nice (too nice at times), to someone, I get shit on, more or less.Well, I'm tired of it. I'm going to be a bitch and it will be a game of "survival of the fittest". Can you see it now? Me, all by my lonesome wondering why no one wants to talk to me??... All kidding aside, I'm saying "f*ck it", I'm just me... and whoever is cool with what all of that includes, great- and whoever isn't, can go do whatever it is, that floats their boat. This applies to all aspects of life. I've been too polite, too conscientious, too concerned with other peoples' feelings for too long. My mother was/is too nice, it's all her fault.) Thankfully, I was spared the Anti-Christ genetic traits of my father..
Like the saying goes: Don't make anyone a priority who only sees you as an option. I'm all out of free passes. Oh, and the curse continues: I can get the attention and adoration of any guy, as long as I have no interest in him. The less effort I make, (even NO effort at all) the more they like it. Do people love "the chase" that much? Even when there's clearly no 'prize' to be gained? That which they can't have? It's so idiotic, and we've all done it. Would we go out and buy a car that we couldn't drive? Clothes that don't fit? Anything at all that didn't "fit" into our lives? No, no and no. So why the hell pursue people that are not interested? IT'S STUPID and pointless.
I've dumped potential customers that were clearly "all talk". Carrot danglers who talk out of their ASSES. I've unburdened myself of "friends" that had less than good intentions (male/female) and the same goes with people who are "too busy" and can't be bothered to reciprocate with common decency. F*CK them. I ask for nothing more than that, and if that's too lofty of an expectation; then so be it. Good friends stay in touch. People who leave long gaps in between contacting you are the same people who would not know if you were alive or dead. And then it's supposed to be your "lucky day" if they take a minute to send a text msg, or call. I've done it, and I've had it done to me. Yes, sometimes I'm guilty of exactly what I'm talking about. But I do know how my friends are doing and they know how I'm doing as well. Unless there's a very good reason: (Plague, at War, or being placed in The Witness Protection Program to name a few examples), if someone doesn't give enough thought to you to see/ask how you are doing then to hell with them. And while I'm on a roll, let's talk about the word "sorry". Now there's one of the most over-used words that spill out of peoples' mouths that half don't know the true meaning of. The word "sorry" is so used and abused. It is often used in a sarcastic way, definitely in a not sincere way and is more often than not, a preamble to a lame excuse. Once in a while, it IS truthful.
Now THAT'S sorry.Things really can be simplified in life if you take a simple inventory, and remove the blinders. The world is full of pretenders. The real gems; they are out there too. I'm fortunate to know a few of them. They radiate goodness and they care. And geography has nothing to do with any of this.
Is this all sounding too bitchy? Awww, well I'm not sorry. What I do regret is that it took me as long as it did to realize all of this. I'm not going to stop being nice. It's not my nature, but I am going to call a spade, a spade and make no exceptions.
Darling Nikki
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